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It’s weird how much change in our lives we don’t see coming and are completely unprepared for. If you would have told the kid me about the future pivotal, climactic, events of my life, my jaw would have probably dropped. The feeling of uncertainty that I have had daily, for the past few years of my young adult life, is something, the more youthful me, would have never thought a possible feeling. What scares me is I’m only twenty and I have so much more to go through, and so much more to learn. Soon this feeling I have now, will grow into a different one, as I will grow into a new season of my life. The things that comfort me now will pass away and turn into something different. I’m terrified, but I’m not going to give up. There are going to be a lot more strange new feelings that will really put me out of my comfort zone and I will probably never reach a point of equilibrium, where I am satisfied and have nothing to stress about, but I guess thats the beauty of life. You walk, and you grow, and you use your experiences to gain some wisdom, and pass it on to someone else, so that it may make it a little easier for them. I saw a post here on tumblr about how it takes an extreme amount of pressure to make a diamond, and that it will be a similar amount of pressure for people to become truly great and beautiful. I guess you could say I am excited to be turned into a diamond and I accept the challenge.
Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.
I pray that God will be there every step of the journey and be my ultimate comfort. I rest in you God.