So, I’ve never smoked marijuana before and I never intend too, but I live with 3 other roommates, 2 of which I would consider big stoners. They smoke pot avidly and probably go though about 100+ dollars worth of marijuana a week. I know weed is supposedly not bad for your health, and I’m sure it’s not, however I find that when they are not high, they are hard to get along with, and are typically in bad moods. The first thing they do when they get out of class is get high, as well as the first thing they do when they wake up, and before bed, and they pretty much smoke all day. It’s one thing to say that weed is not damaging to your health, but I think it is damaging to relationships, and it is a mental crutch if you would have it be. I can’t imagine the deadened feeling a person would have after spending the majority of their life high, when they have to be sober, when and if that day comes. Everything in moderation. Seeing them everyday only makes me want to stay a weed virgin forever. If I can’t enjoy life sober, I don’t want to enjoy life at all. That being said, I know they probably have a lot of hurt deep down, and they have my deepest sympathy (one of their moms passed away two years ago) however suppressing every emotion you get with the high of marijuana cannot be healthy. I think sometimes if not all the time, we need to feel real emotion even if it is anger or sadness. We have to have dark, to have light. Anyways, I’m not seeking to condemn them. They are good people with good hearts, but their life choices are really beginning to bother me. More people should enjoy life in the clear mindedness that god intended us to enjoy life in. The same goes for alcohol and all other drugs for that matter. As for the pain we feel, I think there are better outlets for us to use for coping, mainly our loving god who can make all things, especially the bad things work for our good if we let him. The End

I just want to fall asleep and wake up when this time in my life is over. Everything is so unbalanced right now. I miss my family the way it was before. I miss my friends. I have no where to run too. I can’t find any normality or comfort. I’m scared of tomorrow and I just want this night to last forever. Everyday that goes by is subliminal. I find myself forgetting what I did the day, and even the hour before. I’m living in a dream land and I want to wake up… But I cant. God idk what you are trying to show me but I hope it is revealed soon. There is nothing I desire more now, than gods comfort, peace, and love.

Shine your light lord in this darkest of places and help me to be a shining light. Send me the spirit of truth.
Amen

It really pains me to see people hurting deep within. There is so much pain in this world and nobody deserves the weight of the emotional burdens that have been laid upon them. I wish I could extend a compassion that would satisfy to the world and give it eternal love but I can’t. There is one who can though. There is one who can satisfy.

You know better than I
You know the way
I’ve let go the need to know why
You know better than I

God, I sure need you. Where ever you are.